Kettel - Dubio · riki's house

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as Dubio opens with its title track, I am taken into the mountains. on an alpine tundra, following a hiking trail, surrounded by rocks larger than my mind can comprehend.
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- it’s a mostly clear day with few clouds drifting across the sky, sometimes obscuring the sun, creating dramatic shadows on the slopes.
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- a warm wind blows across your face, creating what looks like waves on an ocean of grass blades across the steep, rocky meadows.
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- when you walk through the mountains, there’s sometimes a strange feeling of all the landscape in the distance feeling like a painted-on wall. but it’s not a wall, you can actually just go there.
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- it’s a contemplative mood, filling you with thought. you ponder on the meaning of life, on goals… where all of it’s going, how you’re a lost soul, looking for a reason to exist.
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Apeface. the feeling of walking through the city on a Saturday evening.
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- warm sodium lanterns give the cobblestone streets a glow that makes you feel at home.
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- streets, restaurants, bars full of people hanging out. taking in the fun of the weekend.
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- it’s a mood I’ve heard before in other tracks, but Apeface is strangely hopeful compared to the others.
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  - yet it somewhat reminds me of more painful times, when I was struggling with loneliness… but it’s more like a happy resolution of those times, rather than a lament to how terrifying it is to be alone.
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  - I don’t feel saddened by being alone in a city. I feel happy being able to spend time with my girlfriend.
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when listening to Sipa, I feel frozen in time, and paralysed by choice.
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- the feeling of not knowing what to do. of feeling like you’re in slow motion while the world around you is moving.
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- reminding you there’s not much you can do. that you’ll just have to control the damage from now on.
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  - it’s learned helplessness. wanting improvement, but deep inside knowing it will be rejected by external forces. being consumed by fear that it will not work out.
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- yet feeling focused, looking for the right move to eventually say… “checkmate.”
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Arpa Ingrata is a timelapse.
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- I see myself in my childhood home, barely grown up. spending time outside, playing pretend with my sister.
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  - our pond, and our cherry orchard. the hill behind the house.
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  - sunsets and sunrises, days passing by.
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- next thing I know, I’m growing up. becoming taller. finding interests. diving deep into computers.
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  - spending late nights playing games. programming. writing games. writing software. next to a warm desk lamp.
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- I’m spreading wings. melting away fear, slowly. day by day, week by week, year by year, I become a stronger person. I meet my online friends IRL.
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  - I change. I transform. I become.
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- I find a job, meet new people who are as deep into this whole programming video games thing as I am.
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  - and then I see myself, now. 21 years old, and counting.
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those are all the interepretations of Dubio I’ve collected so far. you can listen / buy the album on Kettel’s Bandcamp—and you really should, because it’s wonderful.
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- I wish I had some more interpretations in stock, but I don’t want to hold these existing ones forever in my diary. maybe I’ll update this post in the future, with interpretations of some more tracks.
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  - in particular I somewhat regret I don’t have an interpretation for Peepuntpopkema, as well as Secede’s remix of it. those may just be my favourite tracks of the bunch.
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- Reim—I hope you enjoy these. love, riki
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